A chance

I guess all i need is to give him another chance.. but i cant bring myself to give him another chance.. i’ve been hurt too many time i guess ..

School.

School is boring. I cant seems to concentrate. Oh well.

THERMOFLUIDS -.-”

2012

A whole new life for me has begun.. too many saddening stuffs happen till the extend i was admitted into NUH.. i guess 21 panadol flu wasnt that bad.. till my bestie, peiwen talked to me about Ugama.. a chinese talking to me about Islam.. gosh! Damn malu cann..

Now all i hope is his heart to be open. Clubbing+drinking+smoking = RUINED.

Bestie wants the best for me. I love her. She was my pillar when i was way down below. She stopped me from doing all rubbish.. i dunno how and wad elsw to thank her for..

Just got home and i’ve been coming back lately for the past 2 months.. 5am=no joke.. maybe i just need to change my lifestyle.. thats all..

FUCKING LIAR!

Well. I didnt know after you lied to me, YOU LIED TO ME AGAIN! hah! wow! A habit of lying… Congrats!!

P.S: The more you trying to forget about me, the more you cant.
The more you trying to avoid me, the more you are going to see me.

Thank God i didnt accept you back IF your PERANGAI like this.
& FYI, i wanted to change because of you BUT i don’t see the need to change NOW.

THANKSS! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERI ATIKAH!!!

Well.. BABE! if you read this, SORRY I COULDNT MAKE IT !!! ): my family got kenduri! I’ll visit you if im free kayss babe? (: *huggss*

Well. Life has been gooood for me.. BUT some people just pissed me off. 1) No life. 2) Talking bad things behind my back 3) & So on…. well.. people gotta know the truth first before saying or telling other people abt me RIGHT? well…

To the person who is hating my life.

We once fall in love and we are out of it now. Im loving someone else better. No matter how much hurt you do to me, or tell people bad things about me, no way imma going back to you. Well. Everyone sees me the bad girl ya. Goood! that is the way man! (:
NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU HATE ME, YOU STILL LOVE ME
NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY TO AVOID ME, I STILL LINGER IN YOUR MIND.
face reality (:

hi im here x) *wendy the great wrote that*

anyways, tomorrow’s plan is to go to grandma’s new hse and have kenduri. (: & i hope meeting love tomorrow. & please wear that watch (:

love, me and vincent.

Happy

Im happy with what i have in life. Im just waiting for the right time and day. I love my life. I love Allah and my family. Alhamdulliah.

p.s: The more you try to avoid me, the more you miss me.

Great (:

My parents are beginning to give me freedom. Well. i shant make use of it too much. They have been more understanding. Alhamdulliah. (: i think i love my parents more and more each day (:

Been supporting myself. But has not been working. WELL! haha. that is my life. mum has been topping up my car and cashcard im topping up myself. i cant always depend on mum as i don’t want to burden her more. I love you mum and dad (: tho things has change so much.

Well. i don’t know whether people are reading my blog, but im just updating.

Am looking forward meeting aunt serena. she is so cool! how i wished i had an aunty like that. haha. & i wouldnt wanna get married alot of times. its sooo hard andd tired can? hahaha

Well. my goal is to wash my car once a week tho its the monsoon season. So black seh the car. Carwash no use also. waste money! haha & mum puji already saed i learn how to save money. weeee! & she don’t accept my money because she saed its not enough for me. HAHA. now the only thing i do is top up car and cash card. eat in school den off home. shopping? BARELY! thats not so me can? HAHA

well. today just came back from a midnight movie. A christmas carol. with someone. well. thanks for spending the night watching movie with me! (: its was a freaky show can? i had no one to ask except you. HAHA (:

& i’m in contact with this guy. well. known him for a yr but recently contacting. its a financial consultant guy who asked me to join his scheme. but i didnt because that time i didnt have enough to save up. Well that time i went to meet my sec lover because he had an op. so i was under his block with some of my classmates frm hyss. i called that financial guy. i told him i was beside his block and i just reached. he saed he just too. but i told him i didnt see him driving in. he told me he changed car. So i asked him ” eh! u changeed into VW eh?” he saed ” errr. no la. another car. BMW series 3.” i was like ” WTF! no kidding??” he saed ” go find my car” & i went to find. COOL LA HIS CAR! hahahaha! & soon we met up at imm. went groceries shopping with me but he was busy with his bluetooth set. HAHA. just bought kn. didnt managed to ride in his new ride because i brought my car along. HAHA. well. i have no idea when is the next time imma gonna see him! hopefully soon. BUT he is busy with his work. so im not gonna disturb him. (:

Well. i shall end here! imma gonna help dad fix our electricity in the house. its down ! hahaha! GOoood nigghtt!! (:

I ain’t important already.

Don’t blame me for anything. As far as i see, yr coping with your life. Good (: im happy for you. Well. i wish you all the best in whatever you are doing now. You have great friends. (: V. happy for you.

Take care (:

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okayy. In the first place, if you don’t trust me, you should just break up with me. In a relationship if there is no trust, for what?? And if you think that history can repeat itself, why do you accept me in the first place? lets go para by para.

okay since when my best friend contact you? let me see. its wan? HAHA. & as u know that im always like that with my guy friends. if you know me well enough, then you should know. we still did hold hands when we walk. Its not only sobrie. Zul im rapat with also. Yan also. When he wanted to get close with me, you didnt know what. but my classmates all know what happen. & about the girl, you can go ahead and contact her back. really.

If you didnt tell yr parents, IF WE ever la eh get married and i do the same things AGAIN, you think they will like me? I don’t think so. & as yr dad says, another time we break up, no more turning back. He told you.

If i easily like the guy, i would have tons of guys already. Changing guys etc. & the last 6 months, if i waited for you to text me, you didnt. if u text me, i reply or nvr reply. dosent mean im out with sobrie, right? i mean yr sources damn good la. you should pay them. really.

If i wanted to be in another relationship, why must i tell u that i started drinking. i should have tell you ‘oh another guy fucked me’ or ‘ i slept with another guy & i will send u the photos’ sounds better than drinking? maybe i should start. INFRONT OF YOU ehh. maybe ahhh. & that was with wan ( maybe yr best friend NOW) but i proved to you in the past 1 yr 4 mths i didnt break up with you , am i rightt?

Sacrifice. Well. you told me you fight with yr friends because they asked you to drink etc. but hell no. you told them that you have no cash but in the end, they found out that you went out with me. & actually dey hated me that time. & you lied to them and me. how great. & now, those people you hate becomes my friends. which is cool la. For the family part, i know but does yr family (not yr mum & dad) appreciate me? some of them yes la. well i will not say it out here la ehh. u should knw hw they talk to me. not all but SOME. & u think i can take it? IF my family were to do to u like that, you think u like?????

I expressed my feelings for another guy BUT im not like ON with that guy. I mean that guy is in ns also. & i don’t think he is interested. Im just telling you. & eventhough i tell my parents, dey still like you. they don care. you tell me how could i say i started drinking? i should ask you how could you tell me so many lies???????? thats only abit. & you knw i smoke why didnt you leave me earlier? you think i could change for the better right????? i didnt expect the break up. seriously.

i have to wait for a year to tell you because i still love you that time. and didnt knw who to choose. that is totally my fault and im sorry for that cause.

NOW. If you still don’t trust me, i understand that. In the past 6 mths, i have been a bad GF which you ever had rightt? i mean which guy wants a fat, ugly, smoke, club girl like me? none. and as for yr case, you got alot of friends what. im sure they can intro you to some. just think im a bitch aite. carry on with yr life. you always say i want a rich, tall, handsome husband. but why in the end i still go out with you? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. i broke up with you once and regretted it. & if i think that yr poor or what, i wouldnt let you drive around with my car, fetch you from jamming, go geylang with you and many more.

Easy to say la you did MORE sacrifices than i did for you. SO this whole thing , im still in the fault. IM SORRY if this shit happens… So happy living with yr life.

GET THIS STRAIGHT

okay this post is for you. im sure you read my blog.

lets get this straight. you dump me. & im trying to make everything better. BUT you think the otherwise. EHH if you don’t wanna be friends with me, den tell me.

Now i knw how are you like. When im with you, u will stick with me.When im nt, you will treat me like a stranger. WELL. Actuallly, i don’t see the getting back together thingy. I tot u will be the same after you dump me, but no. you treated me like…… k nvm.

how can you expect me to accept you back when you saed you saw me in photos/videos with another guy kissing/holding hands/hugging?????? u keep saying all this i sabar ajer ehh during our relationship.. ehh please ehh. if i accept you back, maybe you will do worst things. & you didnt trust me. TSK!

& go tell yr mum hw bad am i kays because that will stop yr mum from liking me. cooL?

& im that kinda girl yr looking for. Wear tudung, nvr wear sexy2 baju, masak, etc…. well. you gotta find yr that kinda girl who don’t SMOKE (:

& can you please don’t watch porn alot? CUt down on yr watching porn. If you say im talking bullshit, den its up to u. Because you forgotten to off yr comp & forgotten to X yr window. so ya.

i think its till here now. wait. i wanna reply to yr msges.

what i expect from you is just to be yourself. i hate guys giving me a cold shoulder even if dey dump me. wth! hahaha. k forget it okay, MR ALWAYS RIGHT.

k i think this should be it. Take care Muhammed Shaiful Bin Abdul Kadir. This post is for you. If u wanna write my name on yr post, go ahead. takya nak ckp this girl. relationship la. she la. namer ader kn. k bye